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One of the most awesome gifts God gives, is His friendship, intimacy, and love. And like any other friendship and love we experience, it requires spending time together being real and honest. Talking, pondering, and exploring. It is beautiful. Being in His presence and learning of Him is beyond compare to any other. It is love in the highest and purest aspect.


My heart's passion is to share and give what He speaks. This blog is to share those deep thoughts and revelations. Also, to share my own feelings and insights. I'm not a preacher or clergyman...just one with a love of God and His Word, filled with His Spirit.

As His Spirit blows like the wind, I stop, listen, and feel the warm breeze of His Spirit. And it is altogether amazing!

I invite you to join me....
A place to "mull and ponder". An open thought process, ...part of the journey to His truth.

Saturday, September 3, 2011

Prayer: Begging vs Believing

Prayer.  Seems simple enough.  Talking with God.  But why are some prayers answered and other prayers not?  Good question.  Sitting here tonight, it came to mind the difference is in our prayer attitude, begging God vs believing God.

As a majority, I believe it's safe to say, that most prayers said, are prayers where we are "begging" God to intercede on our behalf.  We pray....Lord, please heal so and so, provide for us, please give me this or that, etc, etc.  But inside we are questioning God, whether He will answer or not.  Deep down inside we aren't really praying, as much as we are just hoping that He will attend to our request.  Basically, begging God to do something for us.

True prayers, the ones He does answer, are based on believing...true believing.  Prayers with confidence in God, His ability, and His word.  So many times, we go to Him in the posture and attitude that answered prayer is more of a God lottery.  Hoping He will pick our prayer to answer.  But, that's not the way.

There have been times, I've prayed in the begging attitude, truly wondering IF He would answer.  And other times, I've prayed with true belief in Him, His power, and His word....in other words, prayed in power.  Those are the prayers that were answered.

God isn't moved by our circumstance or our emotions...our begging.  He is moved and moves when we step in with total assurance into His character and His word with our prayer.   There are two verses He gives us which lead us to this place of total confidence in prayer.

In Jeremiah 1:12, He tells Jeremiah that He watches over His word to perform it.
"Then the Lord said to me, "You have seen well, for I am watching over My word to perform it."


In other words, when He declares something by His word, He will make sure it happens!  I don't know about you, but that makes me excited!  All of God's promises, we can take and claim because He is standing by His word ready to fulfill those promises.  All it takes, is our true faith and confidence in Him that He will do it.

Which brings me to the next point.  Our standing with Him.  Either we aren't sure of His willingness to answer, as I just pointed out, or we aren't sure about our own standing with Him.  Doubt on either side will hinder prayer.  The answer is found in Hebrews 4:16.  "Therefore let us draw near with confidence to the throne of grace, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help in time of need."


Through Jesus Christ, we have access to the throne room of grace.  The very place of meeting with God.  And how are we to enter into His grace...with "confidence".  We are to enter with confidence.  Confidence in Him, and confidence that we are accepted by Him.  When Jesus was crucified, the veil was torn.  The veil represented the separation of God from us.  The veil was taken away.  We are no longer separated from Him.  Therefore, we are able to go to confidently to Him.

So, lay aside those doubts and stop begging God, and begin believing God.  He's waiting to move on your behalf.  He's waiting, watching, and ready to perform His word.  Believe it!




Tuesday, August 9, 2011

Life at Lighting Speed

Life at lighting speed.  That's me.  Even as I sit here to write, a thousand thoughts are bombarding me, shouting for attention.  Everything from the dishes, housework undone, time with family, work's to-do list and concerns, and so much more.  Too much to list.  Yet, I stop at this point, and attempt to put aside all those other items.  Pretty much like sweeping a table clean in one swipe with your arm knocking everything to the floor.  That's how it feels.

Today was a prime example of what happens when life is moving too fast.  I'm one of those people who will go until the body total shuts down.  This is what occurred today.  Woke up this morning, did some reading and journal writing, took a shower, and headed to church.  After church, did some grocery shopping, picked up daughter from work, came home, started some laundry, and ate a bite of lunch with Hubby.  After lunch, I felt tired, and decided to rest just a little bit...a small nap to recharge.  Well, that nap turned into serious sleep.  Hubby finally came in at 8 pm tonight and woke me up.  Talk about disappointed.  I had literally slept the day away!  There was so much to do on my list today.  Ended up ordering pizza for supper.  So much for the Sunday dinner I had planned to fix.  Not to mention the housework, the laundry, the week's planning, preparing for work, and spending time with the family.  Ugh!  In my mind, it was a wasted day.  Nothing accomplished on the to-do list.  Yet, at the same time, today has been a day of reflection.  Beginning this morning, continuing through church, and this evening...the theme shouts loudly.  It's time to re-prioritize!  Time to slow down and really consider what is important.  It's time to answer His call...draw near to me.  Come away and be with Me.  The long sleep was a serious indication that my body was reached it's limit.  Which I already knew, but kept ignoring, just pushing harder.

Life can take over and spin out of control.  Everything becomes a blur, with no time to even stop and reassess.  It becomes just a marathon of reacting to circumstances and situations.  Reacting is nothing short of just living on the defensive playing field.  Defending against all that life throws at me.  Me, I want to be on the offensive side of the playing field.  That's where the control is.  Offensive side...the side of calling the plays and moves.  Not just reacting.  The question is...just how to get off the merry-go-round of life.  Stopping the round and round we go.

It would be easy to say the cliche...just stop doing so much.  Well, that is a nice thought, but in reality, life happens.  Things must be attended to, laundry has to be done, dishes washed, job performed, and relationships cared for.  Not to mention, personal care of oneself.  So, the thought of stopping can be done.  Yes, I could stop.  But the problem arises...all this "stuff" continues on.  The "stuff" doesn't stop.  And that's the whole catch 22.  Life does not stop, it doesn't wait on anyone, it keeps on going.  And it travels at this lighting speed.  So one day, like today, of stopping, will only result in falling behind, and having to play catch-up with an already overloaded schedule and to-do list.

So, is it truly, reasonably possible to stop and clear the table so to speak?

Last night was a good start.  Going to the beach late at night, and just sitting, getting away from the clutter, clamor, the shouting and becking calls of everything in life, and just being!  Again, a form of stopping.  Taking the time to jump off that merry-go-round.  Time!  Time for the soul to take a breath from the break neck speed of life.  Time to breathe!  I see a pattern...time!  It all has to do with time.

Life is basically stealing away our precious time with all it's demands.  I say, life.  Life is two-sided.  It is filled with the have to's, the demands of bills, work, responsibilities, etc.  And it is has it's other side of real living.  The side of amazement, awe and wonder of creation, and Our Creator.  Being with ones we love, and enjoying life.  So, life, as I speak has a dual personality.  It's the side of life of true living that I am craving.  Not the life that's a task master, demanding and shouting.

So, here it is...life...one side of demands, the other of freedom to live.  Is it really a matter of a clean sweep?  Or is more a question of meshing together the two parts of life?  It's the latter, which requires one important aspect....balance.  It is more a question of balance in my life.

My life has been out of balance.  Tilting seriously to the side of demands and responsibilities, with the important aspects of soul refreshing being pushed aside.  Thus creating a huge pressure cooker from the stresses of life without the relief valve to ease the building pressure.  Not good.

Life at lighting speed...is it possible to slow it down?  Maybe not, but that doesn't mean this fast streaking blur of life has to be in control.

Jesus faced these types of pressures.  People everywhere demanding his attention and surrounding him constantly.  Even his disciples.  Jesus took time to depart to a secret place.  A place just for Him alone.  One where He could be alone with His Father and spend time with Him.  This is exactly what I must do also.  A secret place, a hiding place.  A place of solitude, a place to meet Him only and listen to Him.

And this time of refreshing will not happen by chance, but requires that it be set as a priority.  A time planned and guarded as precious...as it should be.  Time set apart just for Him and me.  My special quiet time to refresh by being in His presence.  Thanks Lord!


Wednesday, July 27, 2011

Paul, Silas, and the Midnight Hour

Sitting here at one in the morning, unable to sleep, thinking about life in general.  Pondering on what's in my heart...writing, passions, and such.  I wonder just what God has planned.  Life, in general, work, family, errands, and such all make up a day.  Yet, these are what we do....the things of life attended to and taken care of.  Deep down inside there's a wanting more....a longing.  And I know exactly what it is....God's presence.

I begin to think of Paul and Silas in the prison cell....beaten, bleak, and jailed for their belief.  Prisoners!  Captured and detained against their own will.  Yet, they endure.  They do not give up hope and cry in self-pity.  They have within them the fortitude that God gives them, to look beyond curent circumstances.  And I love what they do...they breakout in praise to God.  Yes, they had every reason to sing the blues, cuss, or carry on about the mistreatment they were receiving as most of us would do and actually do.  Not them, they sing to God.  They perceived and trusted in God despite everything.

During different times of my life, where I've experienced the deep presence of God.  Mostly, while driving alone.  Years ago, every week, I would drive two hours one way to Cincinnati.  I didn't take the interstates or major roads.  No, I chose to take the smaller roads that lead to the city.  The way in the country with the open fields  leading through the hills.  Driving through the curves and bends lined with woods.  It was a beautiful drive.  During these drives, I would turn on worship music and just sing.  Not just singing a song, but from my heart singing and feeling love for our Lord.  Something amazing would happen during these times.  I could feel His presence.  It's not something that's easily explained.  But when it happens, you know it!  Being in His Spirit...being completely in tune with Him.  The incredible love and insight during these times is far beyond comprehension.  I often wonder if this is what Paul and Silas experienced during their time in the prison.

This is what I'm missing...that deep intimate time with Him.  I believe this is what Paul and Silas had.  A deep initmate relationship with the Lord.  As they sang and worshipped God, for who He is, despite their own bad circumstances, and loved on God through it all, something amazing happened....they were freed!  God opened those prison doors, and set them free from the prison cell they were in.  Were they praying to be released?  I don't believe so...I truly believe they were just loving God and being initmate with Him.  God honored their love for Him, by setting them free.  The freedom they were granted was a by product, an outflow of God's love, God's presence.

This is what it means to give thanks in ALL things.  It's through, and in, and regardless of what may be happening in life, it's just worshipping and loving Him just because He is who He is!  That's true freedom!

Thursday, July 14, 2011

Dilemia!

Dilemia!  What on the earth is happening?  Life is good and then zing!  Of course, God is in control, and He does everything for good reason, even the unexpected turn of events.  My main question...ok, Lord, what's up?  What exactly are You wanting to achieve through all this?  What?  Need You Lord!  Don't know exactly what to do through all this and how to cope and handle this.  Lord, I ask for Your wisdom and insight...Your mind...and Your peace.  Give me the cunning wisdom to handle this, to find the true source of this loss.  You know all...even why this loss.  Word of knowledge and the word of wisdom I ask.....I pray for the spirit of wisdom and the spirit of revelation to be given to me in great measure.  Thank you Lord, thank you Father, thank you Holy Spirit.  And I demand that all the opposing forces stop now!!! in Jesus Name

You said Lord to be wise as serpents, and gentle as doves....Lord, empower me through Your Spirit to walk in this word.  To be wise to the evil plans of others, and gentle through it all, and also the confident boldness to confront those who caused this loss. 

Thanks Lord!  Humbly thanking You for everything You have done.  I love you.

Monday, July 11, 2011

New Page Coming Soon - Chewing the Cud

As I'm reading the book by Leo Tolstoy, I'm faced with many thoughts and aspects of what exactly I believe.  Not to repay evil for evil...which is true.  Yet, Tolstoy's book is based on the greater scale of nations, and antiestablishment thought.  Which, quite honestly, flies in the face of my belief in a strong military for our nation.  My belief in our country standing up to enemies and foes who would invade or attempt to harm us.  Tolstoy's premise is to basically let any evil force have it's way, and not fight with violence of any type, including military force.  So, I'm pondering these two very different viewpoints, and exactly how it fits correctly with the Lord's word.  For He does have the only word/truth.  I also know that His word can be twisted or distorted.  We are also instructed in His word to test the spirits, and to rightly divide His word...that is to use it correctly and in the right context.

So, all this pondering, mulling over different scriptures, and considering and asking Him for His truth in the matter, also inspired a new section for my blog....Chewing the Cud.

Christian growth is no different from our own physical growth.  We begin young and unable to digest much.  Thus, young ones drink milk, which is easy to digest.  As a child grows, they progress in stages of food in which they are able to tolerate.  We do the same in our walk with God.  We begin, and He feeds us the milk of the word...that which is easily digested and processed.  As we grow and develop a deeper relationship with Him, he gives us meat to chew on.  It's not easily swallowed, and must be chewed before we are able to completely digest it. 

Being from a farming community, I'm familiar with a cow's digestive process...chewing the cud.  Without going into all the details, a cow chews over and over again, and I won't say whatelse, but it's a process that's involved, and takes some time.  So is the process of understanding the Lord sometimes, and what He is feeding me.  Chewing...the pondering, the meditating, the thoughts, questions, mullings, seeking, asking, searching, and researching, etc...it's all about the chewing to arrive at the point of being able to swallow, digest, and finally be nourished from "the strong meat" of His word.

Since, it is a process.  I decided it would be best to have a page to "mull and ponder".  This page will be an open thought process, and not necessarily right on track...but part of the journey to His truth.



Hebrews 5:12-14
...you have need again for someone to teach you the elementary principles of the oracles of God, and you have come to need milk and not solid food. 13 For everyone who partakes only of milk is not accustomed to the word of righteousness, for he is an infant. 14 But solid food is for the mature, who because of practice have their senses trained to discern good and evil.

1 Corinthians 3:1-2
1 And I, brethren, could not speak to you as to spiritual men, but as to men of flesh, as to infants in Christ. 2 I gave you milk to drink, not solid food ; for you were not yet able to receive it. Indeed, even now you are not yet able,

I Peter 2:2
2 1like newborn babies, long for the a2pure bmilk of the word, so that by it you may 3grow cin respect to salvation,

Sunday, July 10, 2011

Evil for Evil

Tonight I'm curling up with the book "The Kingdom of God is Within" by Leo Tolstoy.  The main premise of the book is based on Tolstoy's understanding of Jesus' Sermon on the Mount.

Basically, not to repay evil for evil.  This theme, I have visited myself in the past.  Knowing that you can not fight Satan with his weapons, but only with God's weapons, which are many, but include love, patience, and forgiveness.  Many times, I've been in situations where it would have been all so easy to strike back, get revenge, etc.  Yet, it's not the way.  These do not solve anything.  Matter of fact, such tactics and actions only create deeper hurts and wounds.  Revenge is never the answer.  It is an evil.  It is best to leave revenge to the Lord, as He has said for us to do.

What is revenge?  According to http://www.merriam-webster.com/dictionary/revenge it means:

1: to avenge (as oneself) usually by retaliating in kind or degree
2: to inflict injury in return for <revenge an insult>
Revenge is self seeking justication for a wrong or perceived wrong done. 
Notice the words "self" seeking justication....self justication.  It is about our evil/sinful "self" within looking to protect "self" from hurts, wounds, injury, and wrongs.  It's a self defense mechanism.  It is "self" looking for it's own justice.
Revenge takes many forms.  It can be shown by physical harm or confrontation or it can be a passive revenge such as a cold shoulder.  Either way, it is an attempt to hurt or injure another as a form of payment (punishment) for a wrong. 
 
We are by nature sinful creatures.  Due to the fact of the fall of Adam in the garden.  The fall, in a nutshell, created "self" as god.  Self-rule, instead of God-rule.  It is this self/sin nature that seeks revenge.  However, once we are in Christ Jesus, His nature replaces this old sinful nature within us to the point which we allow Him to do so.  (Yes, dear sweet ones, we have a part and choice in this.)  Making the choice to either go with the old self nature and be revengeful or allow the new nature of Christ to replace that old nature, and release His nature through us, which is love.  It is a choice we make, and He then empowers us to walk within the choice to love.  Yes, love is a choice!
Jesus showed us the way of the Father...to hate evil and do good.  He instructed us to leave revenge in the hands of God...who is perfect and is able to give the correct punishment of wrongs encountered.  Not to repay evil for evil.  It is allowing God to take care of us through all the pains, hurts, wounds, injuries, and wrongs experienced.  It is putting trust in Him and in Him alone....faith!
So here is the final choice...to allow revenge (which is the counterpart of hate) to rule, or to let love rule.

Friday, July 8, 2011

Real People? Any Left?

Ever wonder why there are some people who say one thing but don't really mean it?  Those who will sneak behind your back saying one thing and another to your face.  Do they really think they are fooling anyone?  Me,...I'm not polished, not a good speaker or conversationlist sometimes, and can be absent minded occassionally.  Yet, to me white is white, black is black, no means no, yes is yes,  and when not sure...it's don't know or I'm not sure.  It's  just that simple.  Not into mmind games.  I'm who I am.  So, I wonder are there any real honest people left out there?  I'm really beginning to wonder.
Be true to yourself!

Matthew 5:37

Amplified Bible (AMP)
37Let your Yes be simply Yes, and your No be simply No; anything more than that comes from the evil one.

Sunday, July 3, 2011


There's a scripture that says....

But godliness with contentment is great gain.
I Timothy 6:6 KJV

Contentment is an inner satisification and inner peace. Sometimes, we vision or picture a grand illusion of how things "should be". And when this illusion doesn't materialize, we become disappointed in what we actually have. And that's the whole ploy of discontentment. When we make a choice, it's possible to think...oh, just a little while and everything will be great, or thinking that it'll be no big deal. Or we believe the choice we make will solve our problems, or we make a choice with some other grand illusion in place.

And then, various circumstances arise, and the choice made isn't quite measuring up to what was pictured it would be like. And then discontent sets in and one begins to wonder if it's worth it...and all the lame rationalizations begin to come to mind.

Well, life happens and the choice made is just a part of life. I've noticed and realized for myself that the one key, after choice, is the contentment with the choice. With the inner satifisication, the settledness of the choice, the choice stands no matter what! In other words, we have to be content with the choice we've made.  If we have unreal expectations and such, and aren't happy with it, then the door is wide open for stepping back to occur....because the discontentment will always look for greener pastures in it's search for inner peace.

So, basically, don't let discontentment with life or some grand illusion of "how it should be" distort the outlook of the real reality. Be content within with the choice made and the choice will be solid and firmly established in the heart...and that is where the choices we make draw their strength and manifest.

Be content with the choice, despite anything and everything...that's one of the keys to the successful path of the choice.

Word On The Wind

Welcome! 

One of the most awesome gifts God gives, is His friendship, intimacy, and love.   And like any other friendship and love we experience, it requires spending time together being real and honest.  Talking, pondering, and exploring.  It is beautiful.  Being in His presence and learning of Him is beyond compare to any other.  It is love in the highest and purest aspect.

My heart's passion is to share and give what He speaks.  This blog is to share those deep thoughts and revelations.  Also, to share my own feelings and insights.  I'm not a preacher or clergyman...just one with a love of God and His Word, filled with His Spirit.

As His Spirit blows like the wind, I stop, listen, and feel the warm breeze of His Spirit.  And it is altogether amazing!

I invite you to join me....